Mood:Explanitory
Song of Choice:"Take it all" by TRUST Company
Topic: Why Heero?

Morning People how is everyone? Okay now you see the new layout, but do you comprehend the new layout--probably not because I have yet to explain the twisted workings of my highly scientific mind(which has been sabataged by comics and sugar).
Okay Why Heero Yuy? The simplest reason would be I'm a fangirl me much loves the strong, silent, thoughtful creature that is Yuy--but there's more to it then that. All of you have seen Gundam Wing right?

We all know he’s emotionless, stoic, and to some people a complete jerk—but that’s not my thinking. Follow me here-Heero Yuy wasn’t born like that right? Event had to occur to make him the way he is and I think he feels emotions deeper than any pilot except Quatre—Quatre outranks everyone, then there’s Heero and Trowa (they share second)and after that Duo and then Wufei.

Okay follow me come on keep up. Heero and Trowa are much alike but I will agree that Trowa can be more appealing. Anywho these two guys must have gone through hell to be the way they are. Like…okay you know…Heero I think once had a very loving caring heart because well he’s never mean to any of the pilots…well except Duo and It hink he’s jealous of Duo. He’s really gentle with Quatre and he laughed for Trowa and Wufei and him seem to get along. So he’s not evil. Well anyway getting to the point right.

I was originally going to do aYaoi Paring 1x2 but then I decided to just stick with Heero. I connect with Heero on many ways. Heero is by nature it seems a loner he’d rather go off and handel it himself than put others in danger. He is also kinda stoic but somewhat compasionate. I mean with his Quatre interaction and the little girl from Endless Waltz.

I think few peole can connect with him but once they have it’s for life. Carrying on he takes responsibility for his actions. I’m not saying I have all these qualities I’m just saying I admire them in him. I like the fact that he is so quiet. I think there are a lot of points in the show when he wants to be emotional when he wants to just be human but it’s been so long since he’s done it he’s forgotten how. Another thing is that I think he’s in a lot of pain. I think the reason he is so shut up and solitary is because as I’ve said before you have to experience an emotion before you can be broken of it or reject it.

Like okay a certain young man--I’m sure knows who he is once I get going—has become exceedingly anti-social why? Because whenever he tries not to be ridicule and harsh words rise to great him. He’s experienced many emotions there hope and rejection, anger and hate, sadness. So what does he do? He’s thinking runs like this—well if I talk to people I feel all these emotions and I don’t like them so I choose not to talk to people. I also choose never to show other negative emotions to them it will only bring them satisfaction and I will not have it. Then finally I will love and hate with the same expression—never letting anyone to close that way no one can hurt me.

So I think that’s my train of thought when it comes to making friends, finding a significant other and other such things that involve trust and faith. I mean I moved away from my friends and we all know what happened with Angel, And the Prince, and Keith, and probably any minute now the Porn King just to make it all perfect, like it says I choose solitude over the pain…

For right now but like the song down below
“And I'm torn in pieces /I'm lyin there waiting for/My heart is reeling/I'm blind and waiting for you/”

So yes the song is below in dedication to Lum (Abstinence!) and Junior (eventually your Rei will get there sweety)

Oh and Peter that quote from your book—that just summed up exactly how I feel when I get offers I finally have a good phrase for it!

"Big Machine"

Ecstacy is all you need
Living in the big machine now
Oh, you're so vain
Now your world is way too fast
Nothin's real and nothing lasts
And I'm aware

I'm in love but you don't care
Turn your anger into lust
I'm still here, but you don't trust at all
And I'll be waiting

Love and sex and loneliness
Take what's yours and leave the rest
So I'll survive
God, it's good to be alive

[Chorus]
And I'm torn in pieces
I'm lyin there waiting for
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you

Silly love with all your sins
Wait and stop and I begin
And I'll - I'll be waitin'
Livin' like a house on fire
What you fear is your desire
It's hard to deal
I still love the way you feel

Now this angry little girl
Drownin in this petty world
And I'm who you run to
Swallow all your bitter pills
That's what makes you beautiful
You're all a lie
I won't leave what you ain't got

[Chorus]

I'm blind and waiting for you
I'm blind and waiting for you

And I can't believe it's coming true
God, it's good to be alive
I'm still here and waitin' for you
And I can't believe it's coming true
I'm blind and waiting for you